Help me Universe

Things have been going pretty good.  I have been dealing with issues that need healing and doing pretty good.  Now something has cropped up that I have a really hard time dealing with,    Yes, I have to admit this and I'd rather not.  From a young girl I have desired love.  My dad was never around and mom was busy working and taking care of us 5 kids.  I never got love from them.  On top of that I was so incrediably shy.  I could not look a boy in the eye.


Then I started dating and I was in fear the whole time.  I  would go out with anyone who asked me.  Of couse all most all wanted sex, not my love.  don't get me wrong I only have been with 5 men all my life and I am 64.  But oh those 5 have wounded me to the core.  I am afraid of men so afraid.

 I have been married twice both were in worse shape than me.  Sex was for sexing not loving.  I am messed up royal in this area.
  The first chakra has to be openned the rest are doing well.  I am so closed and must become open.  I will not reduce myself to sexing again.  It must be love or no way.

 Then last week I met a man at the library and our energy was so good but it was not sexual for me but guess it was for him.  I am so upset, not again.  How can a man say he loves me after only hours of knowing each other.  I would love to avoid this test I must go thru.  However, I know I have to learn how to deal with this and I am so scared and mixed up. 
 
 I am just putting this out to the universe because I need help.  Thank you for listening if anyone is there and any suggestions is welcomed.  Things were going so smooth now this and it is so hard for me to deal with so many hurt emotions are being reopenned.  Oh help me universe.


 

Wake up people

It is so strange this life.  Everyone following every one else.  No one thinking for themselves.  What is wrong with people?

People follow the news and think that is the way it is.  But is it really?  What if we are being told things to get us to react in a certain way?

I think people had better wake up and start listening to their hearts instead of their heads.  too much thinking will never do anyone any good,

So time is moving faster now.  So are earth events.  The change is on .........

No it is not all gloom and doom only if that is what you believe.  Time to see we can change anything.

Wake up people............

There are no accidents............

Hey everything and I mean everything happens for a reason.  It is time for people to wake up and see this.  We are not our bodies we are spirit and so much more.

Where are the people to discuss these things?

We need to find each other and support one another.  it is not good for us to be alone and scattered.  I guess we must collectively use our minds to start to unite.

Lets start some sort of connecting NOW........

These days very different

Waking up today I felt sad.  No reason for it all is well.  Or is it?  I no longer can go by what the TV says or even the news.  so much is happening now and all at once.  who to believe? 

I think it is time to go inward and listen to my heart my intuition.  I have to trust me, that is who I trust now.  I think it is time to be all listening, all seeing, all openness to truth for me as it should be for you.


Yes, these days are very different.   It is time to be very discerning and always on guard.  Time to react can be in an instant so must be ready to act now before time for actual action.