Feeling more me than ever

Ok time to be real so tired of just being in hiding.....so going to start coming out of my fear closet.....

I am not a believer in religion  i was for over half my life....so i know what I speak of......I got so involved in religion I could not har or see or believe anything but the the deceptions and delutions coming from religion.....

Well do not believe me, but i know I lived it and my mind was so closed I could not be me......

So go seek Jordan Maxwell and Michael Tsarion they have done all the homework with proof......but don't listen to me...naw what do I know?Only a truth seeker seeks anyway, I hope you are one...

So what else is there, oh yes fear a biggee.....all my life fear has led me to be very submisive and I have missed out on so much in my life because of it.....ah but I have finally caught on to the facrt fear is all a lie.....yes a lie....

I now know I have to guard my thoughts as one thought leaads to another and then feelings come and pretty soon I was off in a land of delutions...and more fear....but i have caught on now.....

I guard my thoughts I know who I am now I am not a person of fear I thought I was shy and insecure but it was all in the delutions of fears lies.....you see I now know I can be whatso ever I want to be and do whatsoever I want to do....

My next step is to get rid of more layers of lies in my mind and life and hear more of who I really am....you see I have to trust myself now no  more listening to to the lies or others I have to learn to listen to my inner guidence and really believe in me....and you know what I do I really do.....still I have work to do to get to where I want to be...now I must put into practice what i believe in my heart...

So this will be more discovery of me the new me as my old me is dying day by day...I must say I feel the best I have in all my life these past 4 years...and I will soon be 66....I am not getting older that is another lie of the mind.....

Our minds are so powerful I can not tell you....I hope your hearing me..someone I can help is my service to the world....because I do want to help others overcome things I have learned about...

I care so much about others I really really do....

Less is more.....

So I just watched a video of Wayne Dyers........I am left with feelings of love and comapassion for  everyone...such a humble person...I desire to become more humble I know it is in so doing I shall reap true happiness...

Less is more I know that from living in the bush over 17 years in tents...
I know how to get by with no electricy, or running water and how to wash clothes in all temperatutes all by hand...I know it was all rewarding to do so...

Now I am back in a house with all those things at my disposal....do I have more now....no it is less...I can say this because I live it I know to have so much is taken forgranted even by me......and i dislike this....I must get back to the basics again.....

I am waiting for my time to do so and the people who will want to share that lifestyle with me.. I will not rush this I know all things come in their own time....

My heart is bursting with this love and knowledge how we  are all one it is a very powerful thing to know and now to live what I know and treat all differently......as tho I am one with all I meet....I will do this it is my calling

One day at a time........

So I am changing I feel it inside and out.....Only I have so much work to do on me to get to where I know I can go....

You see fear has held me back all my life, from expercing life.....Fear oh how it has lied to me for over 65 years now....I can see thru it now...all these years I have been lied to by my mind....

I can not stand it any longer...I must break out  of this lying prison and test all these lies one by one...I know I really know I am bigger and have more power than my mind.....

My mind lies to me everyday....so tired of all those stupid wasted thoughts.....I want freedom and to take my power back....

I must become more than my mind has kept me limited to believing.....one step at a time....

I feel invisable as I am now no one sees me not really, and they sure do not hear me...somehow this must change.....

I must take a stand and create my new self and let the old self go.....How to do this I am not yet sure but this is my work now to find the way.

One thing that works is to stay in the NOW to not go in the past and stay away from the future and just be me now one minute at a time........Now is all there is....

Do you know how much we have been lied to all our lives...this world is not as we preceive it we are in a prison.....held captive by rules, government, religion, all of it lies.....have to break thru it all to get to the other side the truth being held from us....

It is time for bigh changes andlike it or not get ready they have already started...here we go.....change is here NOW...one second at a time....lets go together to get out of this prison to the other side...